bad friend? =/

a friend of yours is doing or saying things that you seriously do not agree with. you want to tell them to stop or to at least put your point across so hopefully they'll see what other people see them turning into right?

people say that when you lie or don't tell the person the whole truth that you're not being a good friend. even i agree with this. but the thing is i'm finding it very hard to tell a friend the whole truth about something, am i being a bad friend? i listen to her stories and i guess i just got used to the way she treats people.. some of her stories i can relate to/agree with and some i find totally wrong. one side of me that if i don't say anything, i'm protecting her from a.. not so nice, very hurtful truth. i don't want to hurt her. the other side says i'm being a total douche for sitting here constantly listening and always "agreeing", even when i shouldn't be. i should tell her what i honestly think so she may stop, realise her wrong doings and other people won't judge her the wrong way either.. ye? ..no?

what do i do everyone? you'd want me to tell you (if you were the person) right? haha =/

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okay, so thats my dilemma right now everyone ahah.. BACK TO HAPPY JADE RECAP TIME :D

yesterday i started to eat again! it felt so good! .. until i ate too much in textiles class so in the evening i ended up sitting with a bucket and going to the toilet quite a few times, oopers.

i cancelled english tutor so i woke up at 9.30 yay! i worked on japanese until 11 and then i headed off for maths tutor. yesterdays maths lesson was THE BEST LESSON I'VE EVER HAD WITH MY TUTOR :D! i made only one mistake and my tutor didn't use that weird stern voice that he often uses when i go for class haha. i realised that i like trig functions, they're cool.

after maths i had to rush home, eat lunch and then my mum picked up jaclyn to head off to school D: ... for textiles class ;D! this week annie, haewon, lisa, jackie and myself attended the weekend workshop. i love weekend workshops! i finally started the sublimation on my dress. i made a mistake and it didn't turn out the way i actually wanted D: .. it came out even better than i planned HAH!

i was aiming for a deep peachy/orange colour gradually turning to the original off white at the top. my first corner of my skirt piece started out pink and i was like 'argh okay, i'l settle for this colour =.=..' and then another side turned out yellow and i totally freaked out because i wasn't planning on any yellow coming out on my dress! i continued to shift the paper and ironed.. and the colours turned out really great. not like my original plan at all but i can work these colours so it's all good :D .. and now i just have to make sure i can keep this effect consistent throughout the rest of my skirt pieces O:!

tralala.. after textiles, jaclyn's parents picked us up, we stopped off at eastwood for 15 minutes and then we headed for home. i arrived at my place at exactly 5pm. my jap tutor's car was already parked on the driveway so i ran to the door... but apparently she had just arrived so didn't actually have to hurry haha. our lesson was pretty good, i'm slowly understanding more jap :) mm sensei also showed me videos of her kids on youtube. both her daughters do figure skating and her son does competition hockey. the eldest daughter has already qualified for entry into the olympics.. but the thing is she's only 11 so she has to maintain her high standard for quite a while so she can rep the country next olympics.. so cool yeah? O:

mm i was quite sick last night and then at around 8.45 last night i realised it was earth hour. almost all the lights were on in the house :D i told my dad to turn off lights so we ended up with one tv, 2 laptops and one lamp with a fluorescent globe on in the house... and that was my saturday.

today i had my last driving lesson with bee for a while. argh i don't like driving with my dad. it's scary driving with him. i forgot to check my blind spot when i was turning once and he started raging at how i could've killed us for not checking. he continued that for about 20 minutes. i don't think i'm going to forget about checking my blind spots ever again.

the rest of the day i've just worked on textiles, jap writing and cooking food for tara's church group and her bake sale thing going on at parent-teacher night tmr s:

i better head off for a shower and get some rest.. goodnight all! :)

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ooh and who follows fifi lapin? i do. i thought this dress AND THE TIGHTS!! she talked about were awesome. i want o:

T.T skjfbsjhdfb.. happy birthday angus! :D

hi everyone, i'm home.. again. this week hasn't been really great. if i've counted correctly.. i haven't gone to school for 6 days in 3 weeks argh. english assessment was yesterday and around 30 minutes into the assessment i felt like throwing up. mm jeffery sent me off to the sick bay and alot of bad stuff happened.. and here i am now.. yay ==.

i wish that sick feeling came at the end of the day. i would've finished the assessment and that would be english over PLUS i could've played the volleyball knockouts )': but here i am stressed out as i still have a japanese writing exam and now i guess i have to do english againn.. i also have to hand in my textiles folio. i've done 10 drawings and 10 paintings. i'm not satisfied with any so i scrapped them all. i also had my maths and jap reading assessment this week and they were total failures. i'm thinking this lot of assesments will drop me down towards recieving a mystery mark ahh T.T

lalala.. oh yeah i also have a fine of $25 cos i haven't returned the books back to amc urgh == note to self: go to amc to return books and cds on monday!

on a positive note, happy 17th birthday angus! i'm sorry i can't come eat with you after school ): but i hope you have an awesome day and we'll get your birthday present to you.. soon. ^^

and here's a picture of berni studying at macq uni library on tuesday LOL..

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EDIT.

ahh i dno if anyone read my blog when it was first posted up o.o but i'm here for an edit, hello :) i feel a lot better after having a short nap and finally eating a boiled egg yay.

my mum was going through old photos to post on her facebook for her friends (lol) and i came across pictures of my 9th birthday party! ahh guess who.. x)

lolol berny remember the days when all you talked about was CHEESE? i still remember haha! :D ahh i also had pictures of steph and ray (RAY WAS SO TINY IN YEAR 3 O_O!) dancing >:) but the picture of you guys is too small to get a clear photo of it. ahh i wish our scanner wasn't broken! ):

okay that's all for now, cyouuuus :)

happy 50th.. blog o.o

buon giorno!

happy 5oth blog, blog. oh and hello readers.. :) i've been a bit bummed lately and then last night i realised i don't have to be so silly and selfish. i have an awesome bunch of friends who do listen and i should talk to them more. i guess i really should thank berny, berni and gus. to berny cos i randomly talk to you about stupid/sad stuff when i'm bored/upset, thanks for listening even though you're uber busy! berni, last nights talk was good, even though i didn't say much o.o just getting some things out of my system made me feel better, thanks for listening 8) oh and guus, thanks for giving me guidance when i was in doubt. i still have more questions to come though! ^^;

on wednesday i finally got to see berni at work! lalala and she gave me awesome popcorn chicken. also caught up with trevor :D and watched berni and jaclyn play with kinder surprise toys x)


today was alright. it was fuuh-reeeezing in the morning, our weather station read 15 degrees outside so i put on my awesome thick stockings that irritate my skin when it gets warm haha.. jaclyn got to my place at 6.55 and we left for berni's at 7.05. i think we we're a tad bit late due to traffic ): i hate making people wait, sorry berni! textiles morning class.. was pretty good, i didn't do much cos i was careless and didn't buy enough lining for my dress. i bought enough lining this arvo so i'll be ready for more work next week 8) first period was a free so i decided to stay in textiles to do a bit more work. both of the white overlockers were unthreaded and i didn't want to disturb ms aroyan and her year 11 hospo class so i ended up just making more flowers for my dress decoration. i have around 40 flowers now? 8D making the flowers is so time consuming... AHH and now that i have enough flowers i layed out the outer skirt and put the pieces together to form the right shape. i layed all my flowers over two of the panels.. i really like whats happening with my dress now. i can see it all coming together slowly :D! oh and i was going to take a photo.. but i think i'm gna leave it until i'm done or around fashion show time. you guys can be surprised.. or left throwing up cos my work turns out really disgusting :)

okay so enough of textiles ^^; i recieved my music result back. i'm really surprised with my mark! i was seriously expecting a fourth or fifth, i think i ended up second.. or maybe third? oh and for those who don't know, there's only 5 people in the music course i do haha. ahh but the difference between everyones marks was seriously half to 1 mark. i think we're all going to end up with really similar marks for the hsc. i really shouldn't be focusing on ranks, but on the marks! after music there was.. jap and i just translated passages into english all lesson.

at lunch we found out our vball game was postponed. i think we're playing next week now? ah and the selective test was on today so we didn't end up having training cos we cbb to pack up tables and chairs hahah. ahh seeing all these tiny year 6 kids around the mpc was funny, they seemed terrified when i walked past to go to the toilet, heh >:D

last period? english. ahh all the norm, 'in the skin of a lion' talk for a whole hour. jaclyn and i hid food behind my textiles bag and we just munched on food and played with our phones for most of the lesson... ehehe. ahh and this was when it started to get really hot. my stockings started to feel really irritating and i had no socks so i shouldn't change out of them. i got used to the itchy feel after 30 mins hahah (:

>> FAST FORWARD >> bus to ewood, train to beecroft, bus to towers. due to traffic i got to towers at 5.10. 2 hours and 10 minutes to get to castle hill urgh. i wish i got my L's as soon as i was 16.. i'd definitely be on my P's by now if i did ): my mum was waiting for me and we went shopping for a little while 8) i ended up getting my lining for my dress AAAND.. i got another hat.
FOR THOSE WHO DON'T KNOW.. i have a hat fetish :3 and now you all say, I NEVER EVEN SEE YOU WEAR HATS?! and ye, i know LOL. i just buy and admire them sitting in my wardrobe HAHAH :D! i should try to wear the hats more often though, my collection is starting to get really big.

anyway, here's the hat i got today, it was $5.95 hah (:

at first i didn't really like the colour of the ribbon and the studs. i was planning to take it off and put a bit more 'jade-style' stuff on it.. like lace or a cute decoration :3 but everytime i look at it, it just looks better every time i see it. so i'm going to keep them there for now. if i get sick of it i guess i can fix it up later.

AHHH and i've been wanting a 1920's style hat for like.. SOOO LONG! all the good one's i've liked are aroound $90+ @@ and then my sister showed me this! it's $29.95.. i don't usually spend that much, on a hat. haha i'm so cheap these days xD but it's soo pretty! even my mum said it was alright. i think i'm going to buy it on sunday.. :) ahh and yes, it's from forever new. i didn't like their summer range so i didn't bother checking up on them in a while, but i realised their autumn range is quite awesome.. well it's stuff that i'd wear! i'm going to save up to buy some of their stuff. 8D

mm.. i guess i better go, i've been here for hours wow == i better get some maths done and head for bed soon. i'll just end off with something funny.

i was watching the news and they were interviewing this renowned surgeon who has done all these special procedures on young kids.

interviewer: oh so what does your son think of your job? saving lives, it's such a great thing.
surgeon: oh haha, he still doesn't really understand what i do.

surgeon: once when he was in class they had a 'parent's day' where student's brought their parents in and they talk about our occupations.

teacher: so joshua, what does your dad do?
joshua (son of surgeon): oh my daddy cut's up little kids. :)

ehehehehe.

ciao ;D

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go away, come again another day.

i'll make this quick, i'm tired.

- music assessment today. i think i did.. okay?
- i lost my jumper a few weeks back, i really want it back now.
- i need to study page 187 in my textbook for jap.
- i'm really angry/upset about things that i shouldn't be worrying about.
- my mum bought me a $350 jacket.. and i didn't really like it.. i feel so bad but i should be truthful right? my mum said shes gna return it tmr but i feel so bad argh...
- farmers and their random emails make my day. i miss you guys. ):
- berni's awesome elevator video also made my day, thanks berni. (:
- pius is a funny kid. i think berni shall post the 'quotable quote' haha.
- i got my school photos today. i really don't like my photo. AND OUR GRADE PHOTO SUCKS.
- i am watching brothers and sisters right now.
- piano lesson was really good for a change.
- i think i'm gna screw up the rest of my assessments, i'm not ready for any of this.
- r ivzoob nrhh frn.. T.T i shouldn't let this get to me oh my goodness..

i'm gna go back to watching my tv and then go to bed. goodnight all.

je suis malade ):

bonjour!

so jade is at home, sick.. again! ): last night i told my mum that i wanted to go to school today. she said that if i was any worse than how i was last night i should stay home. i woke up with a totally blocked nose and i was coughing up crazy amounts of phlegm. yum! so here i am sitting on the sofa with my massive dressing gown, blogging and slowly drinking this really hot jap tea.

yesterday was a pretty good day! first up i had music. i don't remember what happened first period music, i don't think we did too much. second was maths and with a bit of help from jaclyn i understood the work we were doing. mm i don't really likehaving mr wethered. he's not a bad guy, he really knows his stuff! it's just that he's not the best at explaining it =/. ah and i think amelia isn't sitting next to me anymore. she was having trouble reading things on the board so think shes decided to sit next to mateja on the other side of the room, bye amelia ): ! third i had textiles and it was a theory lesson. mm, textiles classes are never bad. unless we have a mean sub haha.

hm so lunch came, most year 12s leave at that time. then it was time for OUR SUPER AWESOME FOUR HOUR MUSIC LESSON YEEE! music was pretty good! we chewed on hubba bubba most of the time and tenzin makes huge bubbles O: ! the lesson was around 2/3rds prac and 1/3rd composing mhm. we finished up at around 4.40 and then ms deagle dropped blessing at the end of buffalo rd, berni at her house, pius at eastwood station aand then i am always last to be dropped off at beecroft station. i missed my bus so i got home at 6.10 :)

yep, that was my tuesday.

and now for some seriously awesome stuff i've come across 8)

Chanel Fall 2010 Ready-to-Wear! Lagerfeld's created bear-like looks or maybe it's more like the abominable snowman look HAHA, ahh so wonderful! I thought the guys looked hilarious heh.

hmm.. same collection, just some items that would be more likely to be worn.. by me 8) .. i wish ): !

John Galliano Fall 2010 Ready-to-Wear! ARGH!! my favourite designer ♥ so imaginative in incorporating cultures and time periods into each simple design! genius i say.

Balenciaga Fall 2010 Ready-to-Wear. LOVE THE SHOES! wood look-like materials and contrasting colours in different geometrical shapes! computer age. it's just awesome together. i want, i want. D:

mm tomorrow it will be a month since McQueen passed away. i was going through a few of his works before and then i came across this. this was his spring/summer 1999 collection. the robots spray painting over the white tube dress is truly spectacular. rest in peace Lee Alexander McQueen.



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oh yee, some poo left a stupid comment on my cbox. i deleted it and i shouldn't have. something about how my group and i thought we were so great and that i'm a user? haha

1. my group is pretty awesome. yes, they have their moments when i just want to strangle them but they're really awesome kids.

2. how am i being a user lol ==. i don't use people. i achieve things with hard work zz. don't come here if you want to criticize, it's not your blog. why don't you say it to my face. 8)

3. i think i might know who you are but i can't be too sure. that's why i'm not going to ask you just incase i have the wrong person LOL. have you ever heard of ip address tracking? loser.

a tout à l'heure! (:

生活に不満を感じる.

こんばんは!

this arvo i remembered this one conversation at recess that berni and gus were having. it was about girls pms-ing LOL. they concluded that out of all the girls in our group, i was the only one who never seemed to show any frustration or anger when i was supposed to be in my pms-ing period hahah. mm but you guys are wrong, i do get very angry sometimes (: and one of those times is right now.

so what are the things contributing to this frustration right now? oh my, there are so many things. just to list on the top of my head:

- i have a whooping cough.
- my asthma is playing up.
- my ventilator was taken away because my parents thought i was depending on it too much.
- certain individuals are seriously starting to tick me off. the way they constantly complain about the workload and how they don't understand things. IT'S YEAR 12 FFS! THERE'S ONLY 8 MORE MONTHS, WHY DON'T YOU QUIT COMPLAINING AND DO SOME WORK. and hey, i'm usually quite happy to hear people out. i listen to a lot of rants haha. AND i'd like to think i am a pretty good friend to hear out people when they're having a tough time or they're just a tad bit tired or angry. it's just when they sit next to you almost EVERY SINGLE DAY and they want to talk all lesson and leave unnecessary comments on every single thing. AND EVERY COMMENT THEY SAY IS FREAKING NEGATIVE. it brings my mood so.. down ==.
- people who seem like they know all, but they seriously have no idea.
- totally ignorant people. even though i'm a bit airy fairy sometimes :) does not mean i don't know anything. when i say something or give advice, i'm trying to help out. i find it immensely irritating when i give advice but they have to go to 5 other people before they say 'oh, jade was right.'
- people who take things for granted. although i think i am one of these kinds of people sometimes. ==
- i found a massive red-back spider in the sink. my mum laughed at my reaction. ):
- i recieved my maths assessment today. 'ooh, here come the assessments' ~ *suspenseful music* haha.
- i have a 'aha too cool for school' list on msn. there are 30 kids on this list. on average there are usually about 15 people online during msn peak hour. only 2 were online at msn peak hour ): btw, i don't usually talk to all these people at that time. its just having that connected feeling when i know most of my friends are doing the same thing as me, sitting on the computer. wow jade, you just sounded so sad.
- it was extremely humid today.
- my head is pounding because i have coughed too much today.
- there are a few more things going on but i don't feel like posting them up here.

BUT BESIDES ALL THOSE ANNOYING THINGS GOING ON..

my day was actually quite alright! i saw/heard some interesting things in my free this morning ehehe. today was a textiles prac lesson *all textiles girls jump for joy*. english was okay? english is never bad haha. i had a productive jap lesson. volleyball at lunch was really fun. i bought hubba bubba with berni today. we're going to eat it in ext music tmr :D.

mm, i don't think i have anything else to say! my heads still quite sore, i'm going to do a bit more work and then have an early night. if i'm feeling like this tmr, i won't be going to school. BUT I REALLY REALLY WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL! i don't want to miss out on too much work and then i also want to eat hubba bubba with berni in music 8)!

mm i'm gna end off with this picture of gus. i think he looks cool in a sambrero. like some rice farmer or something hahah! :D

じゃあ　また!

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wow, i just blogged two days in a row! *wow, i can hear cheers from berni in my head* & i just felt so good after doing that rant, sorry for such a negative blog everyone. and uhh, thanks for reading?! ;D

45.

buenos días!

i can't think of a good blog heading so i'll just state what number blog entry this is now. i will try blog every 2-3 days instead of once a week. i didn't know so many people this, hello readers (:

i don't really remember what happened on friday! the only thing i remember was making hash browns cos i think it was a cold day and i wanted to eat something warm. AND the only reason i remember it is the fact that i took a photo of it, just the thing berni would do :D i think i'm gna take more photos of things now. i remember things better that way hahahah.

every saturday now will be a busy day. until end of hsc i think. i have eng tutor > maths tutor > driving lesson > my day to cook dinner hmm x) but thats.. okay.

so yess, english with jerry and erica. i still didn't have much to say/do because i handed in my essay to ms jeffery and i forgot to make a copy for my tutor == anyway we're getting our assessment notification next week so there will be work ready for tutor next week :D (please note, smiley is there because i actually like english.) humdedum.. so after i finish eng tutor at 10.40/45ish in epping i have to rush to the car and race to maths tutor which starts at 11 in west pennant hills. and i was 5 minutes late. ): i think i'm always going to be stleast 5 mins late to maths tutor but my tutor's cool, he doesn't get angry. (: i've been so lost in maths class for 2 weeks. AND THEN i go have a maths tutor lesson for an hour an i'm already back to speed with where the class is. i wish i had my small class with simovic again! )': i picked up maths so much faster cos the teacher could focus on individual students every lesson. UMM WHAT ELSE DID I DO.. oh right, driving lesson. that was alright. i didn't almost-crash anything. although on the way home there was an accident on the murray farm road roundabout. took me ages to go through this small space on the road. soo scary argh D: okay, i'll skip to the evening now.. my uncle and jaclyn came over for dinner :D and we had fun making finger puppets for taras IST assessment.. o.o and i don't remember much anymore.. but yes, it was fuun x)

last night i slept at 2.30 and then i woke up at 7.30. i really should go sleep early tonight. i dno why i felt so awake this morning, i wish i feel like this during weekdays at school. did studied a bit this morning. oh and i had apple pancakes for breakfast.. and i spammed kaya on top of heaps :D! -fast forward- and then my mum decided to go to parramatta westfield with auntie lucy and i decided to tag along weee. 3 hours and $60 later, jade now has a new sequin blazer, cropped cardigan, ruffle layer top and extended knitted vest. i think they were really good buys 8) and now i'm here, quite bored. i guess i should go do some more work. i've been really distracted cos i'm sick again. my head's a bit sore and i feel like theres a little person inside me, scratching at the walls of my throat. it's quite annoying. >=/

ooh my sister just gave me $65 worth of pastel & paint fabric markers for free! O: oh i love how i study textiles and my sister works at lincraft. apparently at the back of the store they have this pile of stuff they chuck out. usually things in the pile are their products which are discontinued, slightly damaged or some are perfectly fine o_o anyway all the markers here are new except for one which is slightly used. but thats a-okay with me, it's for free haah :D

adios amigos!

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helloooo autumn!

good day!

and goodbye to sweaty socks and smelly school shirts. HELLO AUTUMN :D!

monday: first day of autumn and swimming carnival! i was so hyped for it. planned to go in as many events as possible with my awesome floatie buddie HEEEEH but the weather decided to be mean and it rained most of the day. oh poooo.

mmm but overall it was a pretty good day! went in the 50m freestyle, i think most/everyone in our heat got disqualified (: berni and i were planning to go in the 50m backstroke until the rain was too heavy so we decided to change into warm clothes and hang with the rest of year 12 mhm.

tuesday: not much to say.. but i like this picture we drew in music ehehee.

bernay, shinface, tenzini, peeus & spud.

wednesday: ... -blank-

thursday: period 0 this morning! woke up and it was so cold, i wanted to stay in bed xD aand jackie texted at 5.30 to say she was sick ): mm listened to nova all the way to berni's place and then we listened to nova a bit more in berni's car and then we asked miss if we could listen to nova in class cos we were listening for 'telephone' by lady gaga to be played. we were gna call to enter for the tickets to lady gaga BUT WE MISSED IT AND THIS OTHER GIRL CALLED NGEER. oh well, i'm going to listen again tmr. =) hmm also cut the pieces for my outer skirt for my major project yaay.

.. i'll just move on to after school now. mummy picked up tara and myself and then we headed for towers to drop off tara to work. i felt faint so mummy took me to a cafe and i ate heaaaps until i felt better. i forgot to pack food for school and i hate buying things from canteen now! so fridging expensive @@! lalala.. my mum bought me winter pj's :D aand i also went satchel hunting for willy's belated bday present. i saw this really awesome one in esprit but it was over the limit by $30 so i settled for this pretty good looking one from roger david s: mm that's like.. the second time in my life that i have gone shopping to find something for a guy. i don't like shopping for guys. i'm always scared i'll get the wrong thing! ):

dumdedum.. i talked to berny today yaay :D he said he wants to wear a toga to his formal eheheheh (: ahh berny, you and your togas lolololol!

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mmm my mummy bought me kaya :3