the hsc should go die :D

after one week i already hate year 12 T.T

i want my 12 hours of sleep everyday back.

i want my talking time in maths back.

actually i want the whole last year back, i'd choose new subjects. i wouldn't have screwed up in my eng and science sc and my parents wouldn't have been so tough on me earlier this year. plus they'd trust me more now. i would've gone for my L's already (lol).. ahh i'd change so many things.

i want my holidays back.

i want my farmers back, only saw youse at ray's party )':

i want positive, carefree (almost haha), mushy (LOLL), crazy jade back.. i don't know where she went.

but most of all, i want you back T.T

i keep telling myself, *only one more year jade..*

i'm finding it extremely difficult.

before you were a distraction, but now i must admit you were the best and worst distraction i ever had.

best because i'd wake up with you on my mind and that made me 110% satisfied. i'd look forward to everyday and when i was let down i'd get myself together straightaway. i'd could easily look past the negative as i knew that i could overcome the bad things when you were there. (haah i sound so pathetic..)

and now that you're gone, this is the worst distraction ever.. i can't really seem to make sense of all the things infront of me, year 12, the hsc, friends saying a whole load of rubbish about each other and then acting fine when they're all together (i wonder about the things they must say about me hahah..), and the list just goes on..

and the really scary thing is.. at the end of this whole list, one year on.. i don't see you.

it really hurts..

and i'm afraid about the future ):

ahh.. i must sound quite ridiculous and selfish right now and i'm sorry for always seeming to talk to you in bad moods.. ldksjhlsjkdfh for all this crap i've caused, i'm really sorry ):

i want ice cream but my sister finished it last night gr.

but on a positive note, i can't wait to start on my textiles major work ohyeeee ;D

lalalaaa, i feel a bit better after saying that hahah ^^;

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can readers please comment, i want feedback telling me how stupid i am lol.

i should be doing textiles.. (:

sorry, it's been a while! i kept siging on, excited to write up the great adventures of jade hahaha and then deciding "i had nothing interesting to say" and "people hadn't uploaded pictures yet" onto facebook! so i'd close the window..

but i really should stop making excuses and just write. HI EVERYONE! long time no blog, hmm so last time i blogged was the 6th? OKAY~

last last friday had a bbq at angus's place! it was heaps of fun ;D


last last saturday i went to paddington with my mum, auntie lucy and tara. ahhh i spent so much money there! >< but all the stuff i bought was cheap and really good quality, i love the paddignton markets! when i told yat about all the lovely things i bought and came across, i think she half melted inside because she wasn't there HAHAHAH >:D

last last sunday i went to the kirribili art and design markets with berni =) and afer that we realised we had heaaaps of time so we decided to walk to harbour bridge! ah the walk over the harbour bridge is awesome, there was a nice breeze when we were walking too. next time i walk the harbour bridge i'm going to bring enough money so i can go up to the bridge lookout, i bet the view would be spectacular up there :D lalala.. yee after going over the bridge we went to the rocks markets (haha YES, 3 markets in 2 days.. I LOVE MARKETS!) i ended up spending quite a bit of money on sunday too >< but sunday was lots of fun, unfortunately i have no photos of the day, sorry ):

then i had a week at home to clean the house and "study" haha..

AND THEN IT WAS FRIDAY 16TH.. kerry and lisa's birthday, happy birthday you old bums :D!

last friday! the rsc group went out to celebrate lisa's birthday at bondi. seeing as i had no swimmers, i didn't go haha ): but i did meet up with everyone at around 7ish? to eat dinner, go to the night markets (WOO YEEE ANOTHER MARKET HAHA) and sleepover at lisa's afterwards. it was a pretty good night, ran into someone i didn't really feel like seeing.. ~_~ but besides that.. ye, i had alot of fun and i hope you did too lisa! ^3^


last saturday! woke up at lisas place.. really late (: and i went home, i was too dead to go granny smith XD

year 12 time!!! ;D yes, so i'm year 12 now.. ew ): apparently blazers are compulsory everyday (kill meeeeee) D:! i also have alot of work from school.. AFTER TWO DAYS T.T! but the good thing is i actually bothered to do the work this time, i feel better after i've done it too XD

anyways i really should get back to textiles, 27 more questions to go! =_=

ahh and good luck to all those hscers out there, only two more weeks! ;D

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i should keep this regular..

YOO! i kept putting off the whole typing up a new post thing and then people started complaining about how they knew i would go crazy about my new blog for the first few days then ditch it D:

i will try keep this regular! i've just been waiting for people to upload photos haha (:

anyway i'll recap from..

THURSDAY:
YEAR 12 GRADUATION AND CARLO YEAR 12 FORMALL! woke up late, no more school wooo yee! i think i went to school at 11? and realised i was super early for grad so i hid in the textiles room the whole time haha. i planned to get my hair curled at school instead of wasting $60-70 getting my hair done professionally (: my hair actually turned out really good and it lasted the whole night :D! soo yee.. after lunch was grad, aw man some of the photos and things said were hilarious! i’m so tempted to post some of the year 7 > year 12 photos up here but i won’t be slack ;D i’m going to miss you rsc year 12 of 2009 D:!! lalala.. my memory is already fading urrrgh.

..i’ll just move onto formal? after school i walked to victoria rd and just as i reached the bus stop the bus arrived, good timing heeh (:! traffic was really good so i arrived in the city in just over 20 minutes, not bad huh? called trev and tim to let them know i was in the city and then they came with jon and this other guy.. apparently he is the principals son? s: to come and pick me up. we went back to the hotel room to dump my stuff. ahh next year i want to get a room with our group, i think it would be fun :)! after that i left early to find out where i had booked my makeup. i called the wrong napoleon perdis so i had to go to the one at pitt st mall, but that was okay. the girl who did my makeup was sooo nice and she wasn't awkward to talk to *sigh of relief ^^;* we ended up talking the whole time heheh x)

gaah now i cbb to write about formal HAHAH =_= i'll just put up photos..
mmm it was a fun night! and that cake was the best XD!



FRIDAY:
wow i seriously do have the worst memory! i don't even remember what i did.. i think i stayed home? and tara went off to church camp!

SATURDAY:
RAYS PARTYY! crazy, fun night although the rain did drain some of my energy ): i should've bought a V before i went haha =/ happy birthday ray :D!





SUNDAY:
no idea what i did again.. think i stayed at home zzz

MONDAY:
i have this strong feeling i did something but i forget what it was.. (:

TUESDAY:
day out at parra! woke up at 9 and went on the computer. i checked my emails and then msn to see if anyone was online and ray had left an offline message saying he was free so i called him and he told me he was busy now.. ): and then he asked if i wanted to join him cos he was going to parra :D nyeeh anyway it was a fun day and now i really can't be bothered writing so heres more um, blurry photos (:





neeerr mums bugging me to study.. laterrrs xD

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